assuming stuckness as an invitation

day 24

cycle day 15

waning crescent

the chariot reversed

66 degrees, cloudy

Got walloped with uncertainty and fear but I’m back. Met with Steven Friedlander and got reminded that I don’t have to know how it’s all going to work out in order to begin.

I’m documenting the process as an act of faith, as a gesture of surrender, as a reminder and encouragement to my future self.

Over the past several days I’ve considered selling WRASTLE MATCH and fleeing America. I might still do that but not today. Today I am going to decide to make WRASTLE MATCH the thing I want to exist in the world and I’m not going to wait for the funding to be here in order for that to start.

I’m going through so many layers of transition that I keep loosing my footing but I am grounded in these three values: I want to live closer to the rhythms of earth, in closer proximity to intentional community, and have a low cost of living. I am choosing to prioritize these things because I am happiest when I am living in alignment with them and from this sense of balance I am best able to be available for the people and projects to which I am called.

The work that is most important to me is participation in the cultural production that re-members humans to earth. I hereby declare WRASTLE MATCH to be a site and a seeding toward that aim.

I don’t want to, nor can I, do this work alone. I offer this space up to fellow artists and initiatives in alignment my work. I will steadily build it both in solitude and in community, both in spirit and in materiality.

Related, unrelated. Fellow artist and friend Victoria Smits just announced her Substack, our correpondence will be featured there and I highly recommend subscribing.

Photo by Aimee Rievley, The Sparrows Eye