stabilizing on shifting sands

From Steven: “I see a pattern emerging. Do you?”

I pride myself in being good at pattern recognition but perhaps I’m a bit too close to see? I see an emphasis on relationality. I see an insistence on not taking myself seriously. I see repeated movement between the micro and the macro, the interior and the exterior. I don’t yet see what information this reveals or what perspective I might gain from the patterning. Will keep observing.

“Jeff Tweedy said: ‘It takes a lifetime to find a life like the one you had in mind’

Please write: What does this quote mean? How does this quote resonate for you? Do you agree? Disagree?

I like the way this quote muddles mind and manifestation. I think what I’m sinking into is that I’m going to live the life I decide, have already decided my experience when I choose how I will narrate the incoming stimulus. A lifetime is a life lived in the mind by the mind but also in the body by the body. I think I agreed to surrender to life when I inhabited this body and my task now is to decide what story (or no story?) I’d like to tell myself about that. It means I don’t know how things fit together or which things are for my good or my demise and the more I’m able to remember that the more relaxed and enjoyable the ride will be.

There’s a part of me that resonates deeply with letting things fall apart and together as they will and there’s a scared part of me that wants to know on what I should focus. Its the present though, isn't it? I already know, I just am resisting the tenuousness of embodiment.

I (dis) (un) (pro) agree with all of it. I’m here. Don’t want to not be here.